I am The One: God, Mend My Broken Heart: A Contemporary Christian Romance with Devotionals and Self-Help Reflections by Sherylynne L. Rochester-Dix

Author:Sherylynne L. Rochester-Dix [Rochester-Dix, Sherylynne L.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2024-05-14T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter Six

Five days and I was still staring blankly at the door Darius had left from. I had lost everything and now I was barely eating and barely knew how to start again. My eyes remained glued to the door, wishing and hoping he would come back home. This breakup was devastating to me and I could not cope.

Reciting the words, I now felt might be nothing but lies underneath my breath, I said, “He loves me! He loves me! He loves me! He will return.”

I finally blinked, and with the act, more tears came rolling down the sides of my face. The words hurt and choosing to believe them was even worse. They were the same words I had clung to over time while the cracks on the wall had slowly appeared. I had seen the cracks, but that was all they were, cracks that could be repaired if we both worked at it.

To further make things even more baffling, just the previous week, I had spoken with him about spending the next Thanksgiving with his family, which he duly agreed to with a smile and a kiss like the one on our anniversary. We had spent many Thanksgivings apart. I would go to my family and he would go to his. I was excited because he finally obliged me and said we would be making the trip to see his family together. Reflecting at that moment felt like he had given me the Judas kiss just before the act of betrayal would come into play.

“What do I tell people?” I asked.

Many saw us as the perfect couple, and even while we had not married, our friends and neighbors regarded us as close to being the official thing. I wondered how they were going to take the news of this same man I had willingly given my soul, body, heart, and mind to. He had left me without an explanation.

“Why did he leave me? I feel so ashamed,” I cried.

Millions of emotions cascaded down the already battered walls of my heart. I heard my own thoughts craving for everything to go back to the way it had been in the beginning. I could not believe how he had exposed me and left me. The pain was unbearable, and the hurt was inconceivable. I had never faced anything like this before in my life. I did not know if I could make it. My world was shattered, having taken a turn I never expected and I did not know how to get through it.

“Why me?” I lowered my head into my hand and wept uncontrollably. “God, what is wrong with me? Why did this happen?”

I cried, wondering how everyone else could experience happiness in life, yet I could not get a bit of that happiness.

“God, why did you allow this to happen? He was perfect for me! Why couldn’t you allow him to love me?”

I finally let out a scream.

“Why did you allow him to come into my life?”

I continued to blame God, as I thought about the other men I could have chosen.

Download

Copyright Disclaimer:
This site does not store any files on its server. We only index and link to content provided by other sites. Please contact the content providers to delete copyright contents if any and email us, we'll remove relevant links or contents immediately.